Have you ever been given a gift? Don't lie, you have been!
What is a gift really? I received many gifts so far. Birthday, graduation, competition, blah blah blah..
What is your good gift for someone? How do you decide really? Or, what is a real good gift to you? Are you one of those who weighs the value of the gift with, how much "money" spent on it? Let's be honest; most gifts that makes people go crazy are the expensive ones. It is really frustrating, but that's how it is.
For me, if you want to give me a gift just show me how much you love me. Please do not spend money for a gift you want to get for me. Give me a gorgeous smile; give me a hug; make me know that you will be by my side when I need you; make me smile; be able to look through me-read my heart; draw a stupid picture for me; give me your love; when you look at me dont have a fake smile on your face-if you are feeling bad, tell me you are feeling bad; be yourself to me. Those are what would make me happy most. I will never forget a smiling face to me, a hug that will warm my heart, a look that will stun me.
Sometimes death is a gift for most. That's why you want to be dead when things are not going the way you want them. That's why the very first thing that comes to your mind is "I wish I could die now" when you feel devastated. That's why people commit suicide. Others think, s/he did a terrible thing to self. But no! S/he gave the gift that s/he wanted most but noone gave him/her to him/herself choosing the easiest, stopping to believe in what keeps him/her alive.
Why would you want to die? You lose something so precious that all other things you have look worthless. You keep working your entire life, but at some point you realize that you are not going get to where you want to be; you give up. Everything that you want to have are at such a distance that you lose your hopes of reaching them. Once you make yourself believe you are the loser, then you give yourself the gift that you need most at that point.
Why am I going to occupy this place I am in, if I am not going to convert my dreams into reality one day? Why am I going to stay alive if I am not going to receive the actual gifts I want from people? Why am I going to make myself believe in something that actually never exists, just to stay alive?
Gifts..
When you are giving gifts, just think about it; do you actually want to make that person happy, or are you just satisfying yourself.
Gifts..
My gifts are still same.. I am welcoming all your smiles, hugs, looks and friendships as always. When you give me something expensive, you actually make me feel bad as I feel like I get in debt.
My gift givers; dont stop giving me those that I want most. I want your love more than anything else.
When I dont receive this gift from those that I really want; then it is time to give myself a gift.
I still receive smiles, and send my love to the world.
Elvan
