I published the original story on 10/20/2013 in Both Turkish and English as one post. Here it is in English only.
You and I
I am an unhappy one. I am lonely despite all the people around me. I am a grumpy one. Despite all those smiles I serve around, I am a grumpy one against myself. I am a hopeless one. Even if my dreams are beyond my horizons; I am the one who cannot think about tomorrow, cannot live in today never forgetting yesterday.
I cannot sleep. I get myself too tired; so I bury myself into the depth of darkness. I am insomniac; even when I close my eyes, my mind does not sleep, keeps thinking about about all necessaries and unnecessaries. I do not take rest at nights; contrarily, I sleep my eyes open my mind with you. When you look at me from outside, I am twenty-five; if you can see my inside, I am fifty.
I am amnesiac. I forget a lot; I forget what I am saying in my speech. Sometimes, I forget what i am doing; there has been times that I forgot who I was. I forgot my identity. Really, who am I? Who is my family, whom I love, whom I am in love with? For who would I die; for who would I live? Do I die? Did I die, am I alive??
I am sorrowful. To most, I have everything; some even considers me rich. I don't have anything; I don't have anyone, I am solitary. Am I anyone? I am no-one; like she says, I am the one unlike anyone. My soul is sad, my heart is filled with sorrow. My eyes are teary, they drop in my soul for the whole time.
I am sick. My body is sick, my soul is sick, my heart is sick. If my body decided to collapse, probably it has a good reason for it. My mind should have a reason; maybe it is a traveller like me, but likes to travel without me. I have a heart; it is tired, it is hardly beating lub-dub lub-dub lub-dub.. Dont stop my heart; keep working. Keep pumping that endless love; until my mind loses me, until my soul gets tired of my body, until my soul comes off your body..
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Sunday, January 18, 2015
Media Coverage of January 7, 2015
Charlie Hebdo, a French satirical magazine came under a
terrorist attack On January 7th, 2015 in Paris leaving 12 people
dead.
As the nature of the case was savage, and it was unexpected,
the terrorist attack found exclusive space in every news outlet around the
world. We are still watching, reading or hearing daily aftermath coverage from
many news organizations.
World leaders condemned the attack, and they also marched
against terrorism in Paris.
The protests against Charlie Hebdo attack reached a point
where counter protests started as some found remarks offensive to their
religious beliefs. People marched against the terrorist attack in Muslim
countries, while some other people marched against the magazine’s coverage.
While some news outlets named the attack as Islamic
terrorism and the attackers as Muslim terrorists, some reasonably separated
Muslims from terrorism. Some journalists even held the Muslim world accountable
for the attacks as the attackers were identified as Muslim French citizens.
On the same day, January 7, 2015, according to various news
sources (AP, ABC News, NYT), a bomb attack in Iraq killed 12 people. A car bomb has killed more
than 30 people and left more than 50 people wounded in Yemen. At least nine
people some of them children were killed in Afghanistan when a bomb blasted.
Same day, the US military officials have acknowledged that the air strikes
against ISIS might have killed civilians too.
To find the initial information I wrote about Charlie Hebdo attack, I didn’t have to do much search as almost any news outlet I checked had
some story on the case.
On the other side, to be able to find the information in the
latter part, I had to go through several outlets, and compare data from
different aspects. I certainly believe there are more, but it is so hard to
find all as they are not covered as exclusively. Few news outlets actually
covered the stories of people killed in the other parts of the world.
As well as news media, people strongly reacted Paris attack,
while Middle East routine did not receive much coverage. What a shame, right? I
said routine. Yes, terrorist attacks and killings in Middle East are routine.
As they are not happening anywhere near us, or they are not directly affecting
us, we do not even care. The deaths are such a routine that Jerusalem Post
posted a story on January 8, 2015 about Syria with a headline “Zero killed in
Syria combat for the first time in 3 years.”
One time, our news writing and reporting professor had said
“If something is not interesting, it is not news.” We are at such a point that
hundreds of people being killed is not newsy anymore. It is only newsy when
they are unexpected or near us.
In that case, can we say the news coverage is fair, balanced
and ethical?
Thursday, January 15, 2015
Sports Plus Helps Prepare Children with Disabilities to Life - Reporting from Gaithersburg 7
Midway through the pool, Mark was uncertain. But with coaching from his swimming instructors, the 12-year-old kicked continuously and made it to the wall.
"One more! One more! One more!" he shouted, as his father proudly took a photo.
For Jim Lynch, it was a bittersweet reminder of his son's obsessive-compulsive disorder. Many kids enjoy repeating an activity they are learning, but with Mark it was always a question of when he would stop.
On this day, it was not a problem. Mark's instructors work with Sports Plus, a local nonprofit that works with children with developmental disabilities and they have been trained to deal with his issues, which includes Tourette's syndrome and hyperactivity.
Sports Plus initiated in fall of 2015 as a pilot program for soccer by Tom and Natalie Liniak. Montgomery County offered entertainment programs for children with disabilities. They wanted the program help kids learn how to set goals, not just to score them.
Liniaks worked collaboratively with sports coaches, education professionals, and therapists to create a curriculum in fall of 2004. The first pilot program ran successfully the following summer, so they decided to branch out into other sports. It also led the program run year-round starting from fall of 2005.
"Not everybody loved soccer," said Mr. Liniak. "We went into a gym program. We would have fitness training, basketball, volleyball. We even piloted a baseball program."
Their son John loved going to ocean. But they worried about his safety in the water. Montgomery County offered programs where only volunteer instructors taught swimming. But they worried it wasn't effective for their son. So they piloted the swim program in the summer of 2007.
The program now includes summer camps, soccer, basketball, volleyball, field and track and swimming dedicated to help children with developmental disabilities learn to stay on their feet while enjoying their time. One of the main purposes of the program is preparing these children for real life. Even though they have some challenges, they also are good at doing certain things, in some cases better than we are.
"What about a world where we could teach the base skill, so within the early years when they go to the water park, they can go down the slide just like everybody else? What about a world they can jump in or play tag or do whatever it is just like everybody else? But they don't need me. That's the key," said Liniak.
According to Mr. Liniak, Sports Plus reached its set goal in helping children. Jake, 15, who has been in the program since its establishment is in drum line in his high school band. He is an accomplished piano player. He is also in his swim team in the summers swimming B meets, which is the slower time swimmers and some A meets, which is faster swimmers' group.
When Tom Liniak learned his son had autism at the age of two, he was working as a lawyer frequently travelling around the country. At first, he thought he could handle it like so many other problems, by throwing money at it.
"People paid me a lot of money to fix things, solve problems, so I was going to do that for my son," he said.
But over the time he realized that wouldn't work. He quit his job and family sold their house so that he could start a consulting program and work on Sports Plus to help his son and other children.
Hundreds of children joined the program since it started. Once a child is in the program, Tom and Natalie review his or her activity log and advice parents what activities would best fit their needs to best help them gain abilities they can use in future.
Michael Hoffman, a financial advisor said his son Matthew get the chance to interact with other people, and will stay in the program as long as he enjoys it.
"The biggest thing for him is engaging with other people. That's really the big obstacle of the disorder," he said.
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Mark Posing for Camera. Photo: Katmer
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For Jim Lynch, it was a bittersweet reminder of his son's obsessive-compulsive disorder. Many kids enjoy repeating an activity they are learning, but with Mark it was always a question of when he would stop.
On this day, it was not a problem. Mark's instructors work with Sports Plus, a local nonprofit that works with children with developmental disabilities and they have been trained to deal with his issues, which includes Tourette's syndrome and hyperactivity.
Sports Plus initiated in fall of 2015 as a pilot program for soccer by Tom and Natalie Liniak. Montgomery County offered entertainment programs for children with disabilities. They wanted the program help kids learn how to set goals, not just to score them.
Liniaks worked collaboratively with sports coaches, education professionals, and therapists to create a curriculum in fall of 2004. The first pilot program ran successfully the following summer, so they decided to branch out into other sports. It also led the program run year-round starting from fall of 2005.
"Not everybody loved soccer," said Mr. Liniak. "We went into a gym program. We would have fitness training, basketball, volleyball. We even piloted a baseball program."
Their son John loved going to ocean. But they worried about his safety in the water. Montgomery County offered programs where only volunteer instructors taught swimming. But they worried it wasn't effective for their son. So they piloted the swim program in the summer of 2007.
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Liniak Family, Courtesy of Sports Plus.
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"What about a world where we could teach the base skill, so within the early years when they go to the water park, they can go down the slide just like everybody else? What about a world they can jump in or play tag or do whatever it is just like everybody else? But they don't need me. That's the key," said Liniak.
According to Mr. Liniak, Sports Plus reached its set goal in helping children. Jake, 15, who has been in the program since its establishment is in drum line in his high school band. He is an accomplished piano player. He is also in his swim team in the summers swimming B meets, which is the slower time swimmers and some A meets, which is faster swimmers' group.
When Tom Liniak learned his son had autism at the age of two, he was working as a lawyer frequently travelling around the country. At first, he thought he could handle it like so many other problems, by throwing money at it.
"People paid me a lot of money to fix things, solve problems, so I was going to do that for my son," he said.
But over the time he realized that wouldn't work. He quit his job and family sold their house so that he could start a consulting program and work on Sports Plus to help his son and other children.
Hundreds of children joined the program since it started. Once a child is in the program, Tom and Natalie review his or her activity log and advice parents what activities would best fit their needs to best help them gain abilities they can use in future.
Michael Hoffman, a financial advisor said his son Matthew get the chance to interact with other people, and will stay in the program as long as he enjoys it.
"The biggest thing for him is engaging with other people. That's really the big obstacle of the disorder," he said.
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Thursday, December 25, 2014
Local Bar vs. Nationwide Restaurant & Bar Chain - Reporting from Gaithersburg 6
By Elvan
Katmer
Thursday, December 1, 2014
Local Bar vs. Nationwide Restaurant
& Bar Chain
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Quincy's bartender, Stephanie Ayton on the move.
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Buffalo Wild Wings is a large three section bar and
restaurant with over 75 HD TVs and a few projectors. Although it seems to have
a larger variety of choice when compared to Quincy’s food, serving
preconditioned food meant to be prepared, served and consumed quickly doesn’t
get thumbs up from customers.
Quincy’s on the other side is almost half the size of
Buffalo Wild Wings. Although it gets the highest draw through the football
season, Quincy’s is not the best place to watch football according to Ryan
Kwasnik, a server at Buffalo Wild Wings.
“I go there. I like Quincy’s, but I would never go there
like on a Sunday or Saturday night to actually watch a game,” he said.
What draws people to Buffalo Wild Wings are sound quality,
TVs and the stadium like atmosphere. Sound is adjusted to the sections. Lounge
area by the bar is where people come together, watching the games drinking
beers and yelling. Rise section is preferred by families for its surrounding,
and low dine is the place where speakers are less loud.
“I could see the game in every direction,” said De La
Carrera. “There are some TVs that are showing the same game, but at the same
time you still see up to five or six games.”
A total of 67 people work at Buffalo Wild Wings,
but some customers say they don't have the same skills as their counterparts at Quincy's.
Erik
Mercilliot, shopper at Quince Orchard Place who has been to both bars
complained about servers at Buffalo Wild Wings.
“The one time I
went, the girl [server] was like ‘Sorry that the service is crappy,’ and then
still continued to give us crappy service,” he said.
Consistent
staff at Quincy’s also helps business. One of the bartenders, Paul Watson now
in his early 70s, is still bartending now two days of the week at Quincy’s
since its first day in Gaithersburg. It receives compliments about staff’s
professionalism, friendly and swift service along with food quality.
A local real
estate agent in her mid 50s, Laura Patterson recalls the days she came here as
a teenager. She has been a regular at Quincy’s since the restaurant, then
Ernie’s, moved to Gaithersburg from Rockville in late 1976.
“There is
nothing fancy about it. It is the people that go there and the atmosphere,”
she said.
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Wednesday, December 24, 2014
Quince Orchard Plaza Survives Reconstruction - Reporting From Gaithersburg 5
By Elvan
Katmer
Thursday,
November 5, 2014
Quince Orchard Plaza Survives Reconstruction
A reconstruction project at Quince
Orchard Plaza has hurt business at several shops, but retailers say it should
help in the long run.
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Federal Realty Investment Trust has been partially reconstructing the Quince Orchard Plaza as a part of modernization project, bringing discount grocery store Aldi to the shopping center.
As a part of the project, an addition and a reconstruction was approved on November of 2013.
A pizza restaurant Cici's, a small grocery store Gourmet Grog, a fitness salon Studio X and two empty spots could not renew lease or were not leased to allow renovations. The space being built is already leased by Aldi grocery store.
According to Federal Realty development manager Nick Over, the renovations are projected to be completed by year 2015. The goal is to make shopping plaza less like a strip mall, with more lighting and fewer dark corners.
According to construction
superintendent James Grose, nearly 19000 square feet retail space is being
added by removing useless breezeways in between stores.
“It is going to be a fairly tall
building,” he said.
Brandon Tolley, assistant Manager
at Staples, which employs more than 20 people, said it was forced to downsize
50 percent for the additions.
“We were either going to move out
of the shopping center or we were going to downsize,” he said.
Along with the added space to the
building Staples partially gave up, three stores on a total of 8,155 square feet
area will be settling in the plaza early in next year. The spaces are still in
lease negotiation.
Because of the construction, some
customers thought stores at the mall had closed, but business owners say they
hope to get them back once it’s over.
“The day that they started
clearing out the stores, people were coming in a lot less frequently,” said
Tolley.
Still,
they were not affected as badly as they had anticipated.
According to Alexis Magill, the
owner of Quincy’s Bar and Grill that has been in the shopping center over 30
years with different names, her business gets affected slightly early evenings
Thursday through Saturday because people can’t find a parking spot.
Construction took away 50 parking spots.

"We will be sitting down and discussing there issues with them [Federal Realty officials]," Magill said.
But overall, thanks to her regular customer base she is not much worried about the revenue her business lost so far. She said her numbers were very close to previous year, yet it is hard to gain new customers.
"We have actually been doing okay," she said. "We have a day bar business that virtually not many people in the area have."
She thinks their business will get better than it was after the project is completed as the bar will have a broader view from outside and the renovations they will have later will give more space to the restaurant.
Federal Realty development manager, Over said they will also renovate inside of some retailers' space after project is complete.
"The end result will be worth it," he said.
Jean Tagro, general manager for LA
Fitness that has been in the shopping center for two years also thinks project
is going to improve his business once it is complete. For the same reason he
does not complain about parking hassle, noise or water being shut down
occasionally because of the construction.
“It’s for a better place,” he
said. He thinks parking will still be an issue after the construction though.
“It is a hassle, and it is going to be more of a hassle.”
He sees the negatives effects but
expects the good outcome afterwards.
“You’ve
got to be positive my man. [My expectation is] a little bit of chaos. But at
the end of the day it is going to work.”
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Monday, December 22, 2014
Missing Clarksburg Children’s Family Needs More Volunteers for Search - Reporting From Gaithersburg 4
By Elvan
Katmer
Monday,
October 13, 2014Missing Children’s Family Needs More Volunteers for Search
Volunteers are still needed in the search for two
Clarksburg children since Sept. 7.
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A volunteer community search was conducted in Germantown,
Darnestown, Clarksburg and Damascus this weekend. Volunteers met at
Germantown Community Recreation Center and were given briefings and directions
to areas by the leaders.
Search leaders share information only with the police about the areas they search, briefings they provide to the volunteers,
and residential areas they visit distributing fliers. “They are trying to make sure details stay constant,” said volunteer Vicki Smith.
Volunteers search in group sand each group return to community center once they cover the given area. Areas include woods, tree-houses, homeless camps, abandoned properties or open fields.
Each area takes two to four hours depending on the size and field conditions. Some groups are assigned for field search while others are visiting communities handing out fliers.
The search leader, who is also missing children’s aunt, Raelane Turner said they need more volunteers.
“We need to get people out there searching woods, and we need to get people doing fliers,” she said.
According to Turner, family members did not realize their children’s disappearance because their mother, Catherine Hoggle, 27, said Jacob was at a sleepover on Sept. 7 and she said she took them both to a daycare once their father asked about Sarah on Sept. 8. She claimed she did not remember where the daycare was when she and Troy Turner, children’s father, drove off to pick them up. She went missing getting off the car while they were looking for the daycare, when Troy mentioned going to the police.
Searches conducted since their disappearance by Montgomery County Police and volunteers. Catherine Hoggle, 27, was found in Germantown Sept. 12 and arrested. She has not told the police where the children are or what happened to them.
Volunteer Luis Somarriba said they are there to help the family find their children. According to Raelane Turner, there were 40 volunteers on Saturday and less on Sunday even though there had been more people in their earlier searches.
Neither Turner nor volunteers reveal much feeling about Catherine Hoggle’s not speaking out.
Lorite Burns one of the earliest volunteers said the family
members were more realistic today, the aunt mentioned they are at least looking
for a recovery. She said searchers share anything they find notable with search
leaders, who pass them on to Police.
“Police are doing
their own thing. But, this is not a police-run thing right now,” she said.
The volunteer search is being assisted by KlaasKIDS
foundation, a national organization dedicated to stopping crimes against
children. The group sent a GPS system, provided maps and helped better organize
the search.
“I wish we had known about them the first week,” said
Turner.
Family members believe the children are with someone who
does not realize they are missing. They hope that the fliers will help someone
recognize the children the next time they are taken out in public.
But one frustration they have is that many people mistakenly
think the children were with their mother when Hoggle was found.
“Some people think that the children are safe, so everyone
is not looking out,” said Turner.
Searches will continue until children are found. Next
weekend volunteers will meet at Germantown Community Recreation Center on
Saturday and Sunday, Oct.18 and 19, between 9 a.m. andp.m.Turner said people
can reach her texting 301-538-9372 during the week if they want to volunteer.
The family is offering a $25,000 reward for tips
that will lead to Jacob and Sarah’s safe return.They set up a website to
announce details and accept donations for searches http://findsarahfindjacob.com/.
Update: The children are still missing. 12/22/2014
Sunday, December 21, 2014
En Son Haymana'da Görüldü Hocam
Bazen soruyorum kendime, "Neden bu ülkede yaşıyorum?" Korkular geliyor aklıma; çocukluğum, lise yıllarım ve gelecek korkusu. Korkudan başka bir şey aşılanmıyor çünkü o yıllarda.
O korkuyla hatalı seçimler de yaptım doğal olarak. Yapmadığım da var. Ne olacağımı bilmek. Yine de doğru yaptığım bir şey vardı. "Ben doktor olmam," demiştim anneme daha okula bile başlamadan önce.
Ne olacağımı belirlememiştim. Tabii yarış atı gibi, girilecek sınavlardan başka bir şey düşünmeden geçen yıllarda ne olmak istediğini düşünmek zor iş. Üstüne üstlük rol model de yok.
Benim kişisel olarak benimsediğim tek meslek, çocukluğumdan bu yana öğretmenlikti. Sebebi cok açık. En çok gördüğüm model öğretmendi. Günde yedi, sekiz saat öğretmen. İlkokulda çok da iyi bir öğretmenim vardı, şanslıyım o açıdan. Ama ilkokulda veya lisede öğretmenlik benim işim değilmiş, çok sonra anladım.
Lisede İngilizce, Matematik'ten kolay gelince olanlar oldu tabi. Matematik hayatım boyunca kolay bir ders olmadı, ama liseye kadar hiç bir zaman kötü de olmadı. Lise birinci sınıf matematikten nefret sebebim oldu. Düzeltelim, lise bir değil matematik öğretmenim. İsim vermeyeyim, o öğretmeni bir daha sınıfta görmemek adına, matematikle bir daha hiç karşılaşmayacağım yabancı dil bölümüne devam ettim.
Ettim de fena mı oldu? Yok, mevzu o değil. Hiç ders çalışma gereği duymadan liseyi başarılı bir şekilde bitirdim. Aynı şekilde, çok çalışmaya gerek kalmadan üniversiteyi. Kolaydı çünkü. Beni zorlayan bir mevzu yoktu ortada. Yazık oldu diyorum, kapasitemin dörtte birini bile kullanma gereği duymadim.
Şimdi bu ülkede meslek sahiplerine bakıyorum. Geçmişe geri dönesim geliyor. Ancak şimdi görebiliyorum olmak istediğim kişileri. Hepsi matematikle ilgili. Mühendisliğin her türlü dalı ilgimi çekiyor.
Buradaki bir lise öğrencisine sordum matematikten kopma sebebim olan formülasyonu. Hani şu f(x)=(.....) diye başlayıp devam eden konu. Türkçe'si fonksiyonlar. Çocuk anlattı, anladım. Bir yanlışlık olmalı, bu kadar basit miydi bu? Tekrar sordum, yok o kadar basit. "F" İngilizce "function" kelimesini temsil ediyor. Türkçe'ye fonksiyon diye çevrilmiş. Fonksiyon ne demek bilmiyoruz tabi. Bilsek anlayacağız. Oradaki "f" harfinin rakama görev veya işlev yüklediğini anlasak, soru soru bile değil, o kadar yani.
Neyse, baştaki soruya gelelim. "Neden gelmiyorsun Türkiye'ye? Ne var Amerika'da?" Ciddi söylüyorum, yok bir şey. Çalıştığının karşılığını veriyorlar, o kadar. Buranın koşullarına göre iyi de değil, ama Türkiye ile karşılaştırınca iyi geliyor. Yoksa buranın fakirlerindenim.
Madem istediğimizi olamadik, olacağımızda istediğimiz gibi iyi olalım bari.
Şimdi Türkiye'ye gelsem ne olurum diye sorunca da hemen alıveriyorum cevabımı. Öğretmen oldun mesela, asgari ücretle bir başla bakalım derler. O olmadi çevirmen oldun diyelim. Gecen gündüzün olmaz. Nedense sevemedim Türkiye'nin çalışma koşullarını, işverenlerini, devlet dahil. Ben de burayı memleket edindim kendime. Doğduğum yer değil, doyduğum yerde yaşıyorum. Bizde olduğu gibi, burada da yobaz var, ama olsun. Onu da idare edeceğiz artık.
Gelelim başlığa. Onun hikayesini anlayan anladı. Şimdi yazı uzun olursa, sıkılır okumazsınız . Ziyan olmasın. Bir sonraki yazıya artık. .
O korkuyla hatalı seçimler de yaptım doğal olarak. Yapmadığım da var. Ne olacağımı bilmek. Yine de doğru yaptığım bir şey vardı. "Ben doktor olmam," demiştim anneme daha okula bile başlamadan önce.
Ne olacağımı belirlememiştim. Tabii yarış atı gibi, girilecek sınavlardan başka bir şey düşünmeden geçen yıllarda ne olmak istediğini düşünmek zor iş. Üstüne üstlük rol model de yok.
Benim kişisel olarak benimsediğim tek meslek, çocukluğumdan bu yana öğretmenlikti. Sebebi cok açık. En çok gördüğüm model öğretmendi. Günde yedi, sekiz saat öğretmen. İlkokulda çok da iyi bir öğretmenim vardı, şanslıyım o açıdan. Ama ilkokulda veya lisede öğretmenlik benim işim değilmiş, çok sonra anladım.
Lisede İngilizce, Matematik'ten kolay gelince olanlar oldu tabi. Matematik hayatım boyunca kolay bir ders olmadı, ama liseye kadar hiç bir zaman kötü de olmadı. Lise birinci sınıf matematikten nefret sebebim oldu. Düzeltelim, lise bir değil matematik öğretmenim. İsim vermeyeyim, o öğretmeni bir daha sınıfta görmemek adına, matematikle bir daha hiç karşılaşmayacağım yabancı dil bölümüne devam ettim.
Ettim de fena mı oldu? Yok, mevzu o değil. Hiç ders çalışma gereği duymadan liseyi başarılı bir şekilde bitirdim. Aynı şekilde, çok çalışmaya gerek kalmadan üniversiteyi. Kolaydı çünkü. Beni zorlayan bir mevzu yoktu ortada. Yazık oldu diyorum, kapasitemin dörtte birini bile kullanma gereği duymadim.
Şimdi bu ülkede meslek sahiplerine bakıyorum. Geçmişe geri dönesim geliyor. Ancak şimdi görebiliyorum olmak istediğim kişileri. Hepsi matematikle ilgili. Mühendisliğin her türlü dalı ilgimi çekiyor.
Buradaki bir lise öğrencisine sordum matematikten kopma sebebim olan formülasyonu. Hani şu f(x)=(.....) diye başlayıp devam eden konu. Türkçe'si fonksiyonlar. Çocuk anlattı, anladım. Bir yanlışlık olmalı, bu kadar basit miydi bu? Tekrar sordum, yok o kadar basit. "F" İngilizce "function" kelimesini temsil ediyor. Türkçe'ye fonksiyon diye çevrilmiş. Fonksiyon ne demek bilmiyoruz tabi. Bilsek anlayacağız. Oradaki "f" harfinin rakama görev veya işlev yüklediğini anlasak, soru soru bile değil, o kadar yani.
Neyse, baştaki soruya gelelim. "Neden gelmiyorsun Türkiye'ye? Ne var Amerika'da?" Ciddi söylüyorum, yok bir şey. Çalıştığının karşılığını veriyorlar, o kadar. Buranın koşullarına göre iyi de değil, ama Türkiye ile karşılaştırınca iyi geliyor. Yoksa buranın fakirlerindenim.
Madem istediğimizi olamadik, olacağımızda istediğimiz gibi iyi olalım bari.
Şimdi Türkiye'ye gelsem ne olurum diye sorunca da hemen alıveriyorum cevabımı. Öğretmen oldun mesela, asgari ücretle bir başla bakalım derler. O olmadi çevirmen oldun diyelim. Gecen gündüzün olmaz. Nedense sevemedim Türkiye'nin çalışma koşullarını, işverenlerini, devlet dahil. Ben de burayı memleket edindim kendime. Doğduğum yer değil, doyduğum yerde yaşıyorum. Bizde olduğu gibi, burada da yobaz var, ama olsun. Onu da idare edeceğiz artık.
Gelelim başlığa. Onun hikayesini anlayan anladı. Şimdi yazı uzun olursa, sıkılır okumazsınız . Ziyan olmasın. Bir sonraki yazıya artık. .
Wednesday, November 26, 2014
Eşitlik Yalanı
Kadın erkek
eşitliği üzerine Erdoğan’ın yaptığı konuşma sonrasında yapılan haberler aklıma
bir kaç hatırayı getirdi.
Yaklaşık üç hafta
önceydi. Halen öğrencisi olduğum Georgetown Üniversitesi, Gazetecilik programının
Etik dersi araştırma ödevlerinden birisi için incelediğimiz kitabı tartışıyoruz.
Toplantı için, Associated Press Washinton D.C. binasında iki sınıf öğrencileri
olarak bir araya gelmişiz. Araştırma konusu olan kitap “Bang Bang Club”.
Kitap 1989, 1994
yılları arasında Güney Afrika’daki iç savaşı işleyen dört foto muhabirinin
hikayesini muhabirlerden birisi olan Greg Marinovich’in ağzından anlatıyor.
Muhabirlerden Ken Oosterbroek 1994’te bir çatışmayı fotograflarken ölüyor. Bir
diğeri Kevin Carter kısa bir süre sonra intihar ediyor. Greg bir çok kez
yaralanmasına rağmen hayatta kalmayı başarmış. Joao Da Silva 2010’da Afganistan’da
savaş muhabiri olarak çalışırken mayına basıp iki bacagını kaybetmiş. Kısacası hayatları
dramatik bir şekilde sonlanan veya devam eden gazetecilerin hikayesi.
Biz ise kitaptan
yola çıkarak, yaptıkları işte ne kadar etik davrandıklarını tartışıyoruz. Zira,
Ken çektiği ölüm dolu fotograflarla Güney Afrika’da üç kez yılın fotografçısı
ödülünü kazanmış. Kevin bir çoğumuzun 90’lı yıllardan hatırlayacağı ödüllü “Akbabanın
önünde ölmek üzere olan Sudan’lı çocuk” fotografını çeken kişi. Greg ve Joao da
benzer fotograflarla aynı derecede önemli ödüllere layık görülmüş.
Dersimizin tek
amacı, gazetecilik ahlakı üzerine bilgi edinip ahlaklı gazeteciler olarak
yazılarımızı yazmak veya haber hazırlamak. Tartışmamızın bir noktasında
profesör soruyor.
“Onların yerinde
olmak ister miydiniz? Birisi gözünüzün önünde öldürülürken siz yan tarafta
durup fotografını çekebilir misiniz? Bir insan tüm vücudu ateşler içersinde
yanıp, can havliyle koşarken, elinizdekileri bırakıp yardım etmek yerine, size
Pulitzer kazandıracak olan fotografı çekmek nasıl bir duygu?”
14 kişilik
sınıfta üç erkek öğrenciyiz. Sınıfın yüzde 90’ı savaş muhabirliğinin erkek işi
olduğuna kanaat getiriyor. Sınıftaki bayan öğrencilerin bir çoğu açık ve net
bir şekilde, bu tür bir görevi kabul edemeyeceğini dile getiriyor. Sınıfta kadın
erkek eşitliğini savunaraktan, her hangi bir işin kadın ya da erkek işi olarak
algılanmasının doğru olmayacağını savunan yüzde 10’luk gruptaki kişilerden biri
de benim.
Sınıftaki
öğrencilerden Joe, daha önce Suriye’de iki haftalık bir göreve gitmiş. Gördüğü
ölümlerin bir süre sonra ne kadar sıradanlaştığını anlatırken anlatırken
sınıftaki diğer öğrencilerin yüzünden tiksinti akıyor.
“Hiç kadınlara
göre değil,” diyor birisi.
Profesör, “Bu tür
bir görevi kabul etmemek sizi daha az, ya da daha yeteneksiz bir gazeteci yapmaz.
Her kişinin kaldırabileceği yük farklıdır,” yorumunu ekliyor.
İki hafta sonra,
yine Etik dersinde video ve ses kayıtları kullanırken ahlaklı gazetecilik
konusunu tartışıyoruz. Washinton
Post TV muhabirlerinden Lee
Powell misafir olarak dersimize katılıyor. Konuşmasının bir kısmında, “Haberi
hazırlarken çektiğim bütün videoyu kullama şansım yoktur. Çoğu zaman kullanılan
kısım, yani seyircinin gördüğü video, çekilen tüm videonun yüzde 10’undan daha
azdır ve etik olarak videonun kesilmesinde bir sakınca yoktur,” diyor.
Hemen soru
soruyorum.
“Peki, videonun
bir kısmını alıp, konuşmacının ağzından asıl söylemek istediğinin dışında bir
anlam ifade edecek şekilde haberi hazırlamak ahlaki açıdan kabul edilebilir mi?”
Lee “Anlamda
değişikliğe neden olacak her derleme gazetecilik ahlakınana aykırıdır,” diyor.
İki gün önce
Cumhurbaşkanı Erdoğan kadın hakları konusunda yaptığı konuşmada, kadın erkek
eşitliği konusunda görüşlerini dile getirdi. Konuşmanın kadın hakları ile
ilgili olan kısmı yaklaşık 18 dakika. Genel olarak adalet konusunu işlemiş.
Bizim haberdar
olduğumuz kısmı ise yaklaşık 45 saniyelik kısım. “Kadın ver erkek eşit
değildir.”
Önü ve arkasını
bildirmeden “Kadın ile erkeği eşit konuma getiremezsiniz. O fıtrata terstir,” cümlelerini
bize sundular. Biz de yuttuk hap gibi. Nasılsa muhalif her seyi gözümüz kapalı
kabul ediyoruz. Araştırmak incelemek gibi huylar bize ters çünkü. Hadi bizi
geçelim asıl sözüm bunu bize sunan habercilere. Türkiye’de gazeteci olmak zor.
Ya yandaşsınızdır ya da gözü kapalı muhalefet. Ahlak yoksunluğu, Türk
gazeteciliğinde üstatlık makamına getirir adamı.
Türkiyedeki haber
kaynaklarından BBC
Türkçe, Oda
TV, Sözcü,
Cumhuriyet
attıkları başlıklarla bize gazeteci ahlaksızlığının örneklerini sundular, sağolsunlar.
Başka da vardır daha arama gereği duymadım. Sabah
başka bir taraftan bakıp avukatlığa soyunmuş. Gerçi, gayri-ahlaki
gazeteciliğin açığa vurulması da ahlaki gazeteciliğe girer. O yüzden o kadar
çatmayacağım Sabah’a.
The
Guardian, BBC, Business
Insider, Telegraph
Türkiye’deki haber kaynaklarına dayandırarak sözleşmiş gibi aynı başlıkları
atmışlar. Tamam Türkçe bilmiyorsunuz da, bilen birine de mi sormuyorsunuz.
Ahlak dersi sizin zamanınızda zorunlu değil miydi acaba? Yoksa doğal mı bu
ahlaksızlık. Saldırgan olunduğu kadar mı kabul görülüyor ki, sadece en radikal
görünecek kısmı kesip almaktan çekinmiyorsunuz? Bu mudur gazetecilik? En çok
tıklanacak kelimeyi başlık yapmak.
Tamam, kabul;
başına sonuna bakmazsak adamın söylediği en ilginç kısım burası. İyi de bunu
öncesi ile sonrası nerede? Sadece burayı yazmak etik gazeteciliğe sığar mı?
Ondan sonra gel
Facebook’a bak. Arkadaş listem coşmuş. Nerde kadın erkek eşitliği yaygarası
kopuyor. Birisi çıkmış yabancı basının bizimle nasıl dalga geçtiğinden dem
vuruyor. Öteki küfretmeyi erdem sayıyor. Yahu sen sana verilenden fazlasını
araştırmazsan, ahlaksız gazetecinin kör okuyucusu olursun. O yüzden de onların
ahlaksızlığı bitmez. Onun da sebebi senin okumayı istediğin haberi arıyor
olmandır. Okumak güzel şey, araştırmak harika. Az kafa yormaktan zarar gelmez.
Denemeyi tavsiye ederim.
Sunday, November 2, 2014
Neighbors Frustrated Over High School Students Parking on Their Streets - Reporting from Gaithersburg 3
By Elvan
Katmer
Thursday,
October 15, 2014
Neighbors Frustrated
Over High School Students Parking on Their Streets
East Deer Park residents are increasingly frustrated by
parking problems in their neighborhood and congestion caused by the new
addition to the high school.
In a petition handed to the city council last week, 76
neighbors of Gaithersburg High School asked for permit parking only between 7
a.m. to 6 p.m. to prevent students from parking on several nearby streets.
City Manager Tony Tomasello said the city will respond
within a month. City officials want to make sure that the majority of the
people in the neighborhood support the petition before making any changes.![]() |
Gaithersburg High School students heading to their cars on
Tulip Drive after School. Photo: Katmer
|
Bruce Wang, who has lived on Tulip Drive near the school for
three years, said parking is a constant problem in the area. He worries that
it’s a safety issue too.
I am concerned that emergency vehicles wouldn’t get to my
property,” he said.
He also said parking load on the streets makes trash pick-up
difficult. Residents are not allowed to leave their trash on streets because
they are public place, and collectors don’t pick them up from their yards as
they cannot go around the cars parked on streets.
According to a spokesman for the Gaithersburg Police
Department, 48 citations were issued on mentioned streets from the beginning of
2013 to Oct. 10 of this year for parking violations. He said the road is wide
enough that emergency vehicles can get through even if cars are parked on both
sides of the street.
Still, not everyone supports new parking restrictions.
Jimmy Jackson, a homeowner on Peony Drive near the school,
said he thinks the student parking isn’t as big an issue on that street, which
is wider and has a sidewalk.
“I would have no problem if kids wanted to park on this
street,” he said.
Others said the problem is not necessarily the students’
fault.
Carol Johnson, a homeowner on Gaither Street, noted that
parking signs and curb paintings in the area are not up to date.
“Students are not able to tell where they can park or where
they cannot,” she said.
She also suggested a two-hour restriction would be enough to
get the students off their streets.
Parking is a privilege at the school, where roughly half of
students don’t even have a driver’s license. Despite having 2,200 students, the
school has only about 60 spaces in its parking lots for students, according to
Deanna Duff, who works in the main office. The addition recently completed
eliminated some of the parking spaces as well.
Seniors can use a space if they have an internship or an
after-school program for about $38 a semester.
Duff noted that neighbors have called to complain about
students parking on their streets, but the school doesn’t have the authority to
stop them.
“If there is a legal parking space in the neighborhood,
there is nothing we can do to stop students from parking there,” she said.
Other than the nearby streets, students say they would have
to park at Gaithersburg city hall, roughly a 40 minute walk.
“You wouldn’t make it to the school on time,” Connor Moy, a
junior student said.
Students think administrators who advice to park at the old
town parking garage is clueless.
“She [Deanne Duff] has never had to do it, ‘cause she always
gets that spot right outside the door,” said Zach Ricardo, another junior
student.
Duff said students always have the option to ride the bus.
“Students have adequate access to transportation to the
school,” she said. “The fact that they are driving to the school is something
they are choosing to do.”
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Friday, October 31, 2014
Cold Weather, Hot Music, Chill Finale - Reporting from Gaithersburg 1
By Elvan
Katmer
Thursday,
September 25, 2014
Cold Weather, Hot Music, Chill Finale
Drizzling rain led to low turnout for a
performance by Flamenco, Flamenco-pop-jazz band Trio-Caliente in Olde Towne
Gaithersburg Thursday.
Held at the outdoor pavilion at city hall,
the concert was the last in a summer series of live events aimed at families as
well as of all ages.
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Few people showed up for the final concert.
Photo: Katmer
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The free concert series is sponsored by
the city, which spent $57,000 bringing 13 bands and solo artists to town along
with other entertainment events.
Performers
ranged from pop to bluegrass and jazz and included such notables as Seamus Kennedy
and the Olney Big Band.
According to the arts and events program coordinator
Amanda Cornaglia, attendance nearly doubled from last year’s concert series.
The biggest attendance was for Olney Big Band, which plays swing dance and jazz.
Cornaglia said an average of 100 people attended summer concerts, and about 60
to 75 people September events. “We will continue to have the events as long as
the budget is there.”
The concerts averaged about 100 people, with
Olney Big Band, which plays swing music from the 1940s, bringing in the most at
155. That’s below a children’s series on Thursday mornings in the summer, which
attracts as many as 350 people, but Cornaglia said the city is satisfied with
this year’s turnout.
“The attendance is within our expectations,”
she said.
Regular concert goers said attendance was down for the final event in part due to the weather.
Less than 20 people showed up for the concert with their picnic chairs and raincoats. Some preferred to use picnic tables in the concert area after drying the seats. Towels and blankets were helpful for keeping warm and dry.
The rainy weather did not seem to bother Trio
Caliente. “I think tonight we might use this as a rehearsal,” joked Deborah
Benner, the band’s vocalist. Band members also kidded second guitarist Amilcar
Cruz, who seemed annoyed at the bad weather.
The band has been together for about ten
years. The Group plays in Bethesda every weekend at CO2, a restaurant in
Woodmont. They also perform in private parties in San Francisco, Miami, and
other cities in South America at special events, festivals and fundraisers.
Despite the cold, the audience seemed to
enjoy Trio-Caliente’s music in their chairs clapping and occasionally dancing.
Some people left earlier as it got colder through the night, while others
stayed holding tighter on their blankets.
“We come every other show,” said Ken Weiss
from the audience.
Despite the success of this year’s series,
city officials said they still haven’t decided whether they’ll continue next
year.
“We will have something there, but we will
determine looking into the interest we get from the public,” said Dorothy
Winder, arts and events team member.
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Location:
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